So I recently threw my friend Brian a B-day party at my house. Well it was all kinds of fun for a little bit anyway. Well Brians friend Sean came and WOW... I was in awe, he is so cute and a really cool guy. SO yeah (Back to the party) Sean brought this girl Rebecca. Rebecca got soo hammered that she passed out in my bathroom totally ending the party, which completely sucked because I soo wanted to make some move on Sean. Well as it turns out the next day I asked Brian for Seans #.  I called Sean and left him a message. Well as fate would have it he called me back. A few days later I was talking to Sean on the phone and got extremely shy, after I got off the phone I asked Text Messaged Sean asking him out. He said yes and that totally made my day. So Sean and I were doing to go out the following Saturday, but Sean had to work and couldn't come out here ( He lives like an hour away :(  in Mojave.). I was really bummed but figured whatever. Well about a week later I was talking to Sean and we decided to go out... YAY... That Thursday night Sean and I went to Pasadena, had some dinner and then went to the beach. I had such a great time with him it's not even funny.  Sean told me that he wasn't really planning on dating anyone because he is moving to San Jose for school in about a month or so. Although I am discouraged by Sean moving... I really like him so that didn't stop me from trying. It has been a few days now since our first date, and I love spending time with him. I feel like I want to spent the entire month with him! He came out to my house tonight and just lying with him on my bed holding him made me feel so good inside that I can't even express it entirely. When he left to go home, I was really on cloud nine. I am really caught though. What should I do? I really want him to be my boyfriend, but I wouldn't want it to end when he moves. So I don't know if I should roll with the punches and not persue a further and more in depth relationship, or if I should just do it... Balls to the wall, and just ask him? Errr, it's just my luck I guess that I would meet a guy that is totally incredible, and I can't be with him. I've even considered saving up and possibly moving out to San Jose if things work out. I dunno. I just really like him and want to be with him more and more, Anyone wanna help me out?

---Chris 7/17/04  3:10am

YAY sean and I are Officially and "Item". I am soo happy!!!

---Chris 7/20/04

Ok so it has been a while since I have been in here, so here's the scoop.  Sean and I are doing GREAT. The more time I spend with him the more I fall for him. The other day was our one month Anniversary, and his birthday was the day before. So I took Sean to Sea World because he has never been, we had a total blast and just really enjoyed our day. We are getting pretty serious and it is a little scary, but at the same time... it just feels so right. We went a few weeks ago and got matching promise rings with our names engraved on the inside. I am soo happy to have someone that means so much to me. Sean moved away to school on Wednesday. It was, I think the hardest goodbye I have ever had to make... we both cried so much. He means so much to me. I am literally going crazy thinking about it, and it has only been 2 days. This is going to be the hardest time of my life, but Sean is very much worth it.  On a good note tho, I have already planned to go up to visit him on Labor Day weekend. I am really excited and hopefully we will take a drive up to San Francisco and visit my cousin Nicole. But We'll see... The weekend is more about Sean and I that it is about anyone else. I am hoping to see him about 2 times a month which I think will be ok. He means so much to me, he truely is the brightest star in my universe. I think I'm in love with him and want to be with him for a very long time. I am just really looking forward to seeing him in a few weeks and holding him in my arms again.

---Chris 8/20/04